confession...

i was looking for a new devotional/bible study plan. i like them where it's more scripture than supplemental bible study. as i looked through the topics, i realized i was passing over some because i was convicted just reading the titles.

i knew if i dug into those topics of study that i would be required to confess some things and make changes.

to communicate with some people i'd rather not to try and heal some things. make things right. not begin or restore a relationship, just fix some wounds.

fix my attitude about ___________________ (yep, fill in the blank. about 5 different things would fit.)

and i don't want to.

this came after a week where i had the absolute worst nightmare of my life. and i had two this week, one i was staying at a bed and breakfast and it was snake infested, with venomous snakes. but it was handled well, they had people on staff that watched you and the snakes while you slept and if you slept really still, you would be okay. but if you tossed and turned, the snakes would bite you. the watchers would administer anti-venin after you were bit, in your sleep. when i checked out there were two charges for anti-venin on my bill. and this was not the worst one i had.

weird that they were both about sleeping. may have to google the meaning of dreams...

i wish i knew why i had such vivid nightmares. have since i was a child, though.

anyway, i chose a different bible study plan. but i know there are some things i need to change. (aren't there always?) so when i finish this 21 days, i will revisit the others and step out in faith that god will do a good big work in me.